{"id":13386,"date":"2018-08-07T19:27:15","date_gmt":"2018-08-07T17:27:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.marjoleininhetklein.com\/?p=13386"},"modified":"2019-10-21T19:38:39","modified_gmt":"2019-10-21T17:38:39","slug":"off-track","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.marjoleininhetklein.com\/en\/2018\/08\/07\/off-track\/","title":{"rendered":"Off track"},"content":{"rendered":"

I\u2019ve been feeling a little off track lately and I think I know how to get back on track. In order to do that I needed to make a difficult decision which I\u2019ve been putting off. But of course putting it off won\u2019t make anything better ; )<\/em><\/p>\n\"\"<\/a>\n

I\u2019m not getting by as a freelancer and so I\u2019ve decided to find a job for two days a week. There, I\u2019ve said it. And since I\u2019m feeling somewhat relieved after making this decision, I know I\u2019ve made the right one. Was it really so hard for me to make this decision? Well, yes. Because it feels like failing.\u00a0 I quit my job in November 2016 so I could concentrate completely on the Tiny House movement, because that\u2019s where my heart is. In 2017 I was able to get by just fine, but this year it\u2019s different. It\u2019s hard work and little money. I don\u2019t mind working hard, but I don\u2019t like having to worry about my income. It controls my thoughts and it takes all the fun out of working. I\u2019m desperately focused on money when I just want to enjoy working.<\/p>\n

I also need to admit that I\u2019m just not a natural business woman. Ha, that\u2019s the understatement of the year! I\u2019ve found out that it\u2019s just not for me; I don\u2019t want to be all about the money. Which is fine, but when you\u2019re self-employed you might need to be. Hence the decision to find a job for two days in the week. That way I can have a basic income which takes the pressure off for me, and for the rest of the week I can focus on Tiny House activities.<\/p>\n\"\"<\/a>\n

I\u2019m also a little off track because I\u2019m not really sure what my role is in the Tiny House movement in the Netherlands. The project I started up in Leusden grew above my head really fast and I\u2019m losing the connection with it. Maybe it\u2019s just too big for me. I\u2019m Marjolein in het Klein (little) for a reason ;). I love working on a national level for Tiny House Nederland. Connecting people to each other, offering a platform with information, all the things we do like organising the meetings for initiative groups. But this also doesn\u2019t create an income for me; it\u2019s about 95% voluntary. That\u2019s usually not a problem for me, but that changes when you struggle to get by. For me an unconditional basic income would be perfect.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve also lost my inspiration for blogging and that\u2019s weird, because I\u2019ve never had this before. At some point you\u2019ve written a blog about just about everything concerning living in a Tiny House, but that\u2019s not really the problem. Maybe I just need to take a step back, trying not to focus on a thousand things at once. Maybe I need to focus on just 2 or 3 projects for the Tiny House movement at a time, beside my 2-day job? Do I have the courage to let go control and pass it on to others, risking the possibility I may not be needed anymore? That\u2019s probably an illusion anyway huh, thinking you can\u2019t be missed? Maybe it\u2019s time to let go. Taking my rest, regrouping, and getting inspired again. And in the meantime: lots of playtime! Standing with my feet in the ocean. Dancing in the rain. Doing things that have nothing to do with Tiny Houses. And rediscovering what makes my heart sing. I think it\u2019s time for this, don\u2019t you?<\/p>\n\"\"<\/a>\n

I suspect it might be really nice to spend two days a week with something other than Tiny Houses. If you happen to have a job for me or have a tip where to find one, let me know. Preferably in Alkmaar so I can use my bike, but if it\u2019s a really fun job I\u2019m willing to travel further. I\u2019m a good project assistant, communication is a strong suit, I\u2019m proactive and am good at organising. Thanks for thinking with me!<\/p>\n

Tomorrow I\u2019m leaving for France for a week, staying with friends in a beautiful house in Normandy. More than enough time for fun, good talks around a campfire and time for thinking about the bigger questions of life. Love it! Really being away and broadening my horizon might help to get a clearer view of the road before me. I\u2019ll bring the laptop though so I can do a few chores there. My home and livestock will be looked after by dear friends. See you soon!<\/p>\n

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