It’s a beautiful night with a clear sky. I was just outside, looking at the stars and I thought: if I were allowed one wish, what would it be? It came down to completely accepting myself and others as they are. All right Marjolein, but what makes you choose exactly this wish? Yes, sometimes I have conversations like this with myself ;)
I thought, well, I want to make the world a little bit better. No wait, not the world, the world is fine as it is. I want to make humanity a little better. Unite all humans and making sure we stop thinking that we own this planet. To express love and truth, fight inequality. I’ve got my work cut out for me… But I continued asking, why do you want this? Do you want people to appreciate you, look up to you? Be honest, now. No, that’s not it, although it would be a nice side effect. I really want to see an end to the unnecessary suffering and injustice in the world, created by mankind. I don’t want to live with it and I just know we can do better than this. I feel the need to contribute to that and I think I have it in me, but I feel I’m not doing enough just yet. I want to help people wake up. But I’m not nearly there yet myself, so who am I to ask this of others? There’s so much room for improvement. So first wake up yourself, Marjolein.
But, then I thought, what if your wish came true and you would accept yourself and everyone else completely as they are, would you still feel the need to change things? Well, I got me there. Because, if I am so happy with myself, accepting others as they are, why would I want to change things? If I accept everyone as they are, would I also accept all human behavior as it is? No, that’s the difference. You can accept people as they are, but not accept certain behavior. It’s a bit educational, I know.
All of this has absolutely nothing to do with Tiny Houses, of course. But it’s my blog so I can write anything I want, ha! Fine, here’s a beautiful picture of my house, although it has nothing to do with the contents of this blog:
And moving on. What is it with me, always wanting to improve. It’s not that hard to understand though; I’ve always had the feeling that I’m not good enough. It’s a mixed blessing, because it’s pretty hard living with yourself when you’re never good enough in your own eyes. You make everything personal and you’re not open for real connections. On the other hand, it makes you motivated to keep trying to improve yourself, which surely has its rewards. But it’s also exhausting. Being satisfied with what is already there, that’s a thing for me. That’s why I made one of my resolutions to think of 3 things I’m grateful for every morning. I’m doing pretty well at that, by the way.
Right, that’s enough philosophizing for the night. Earlier today I thought: I’ve got it made! Sometimes it just comes up, I love that. I had just bought some wood, so the stove can do its job and it’s warm and cozy inside. TipTop laundry service brought by my laundry: clean, dry and folded. Enough clean undergarments, yeah! The sun shone abundantly today so my batteries are fully loaded, and there’s plenty of water in my tank. And it was gorgeous sitting by the water tonight. Such bliss! When you’re living off-grid nothing comes naturally, but you learn to appreciate the basic stuff. That’s worth a million. Have a good night!